Day 21 : Where things begins to change , Numb.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Nice movie.. Mainly about street dancing which is cool...Don't know why become like i end up finding show of WangZi.. Seem nice.. Ehhhh i not gey okay.. im straight ! Just thinking that the show he got act inside de mostly i interested.. like Brown Sugar Macchiato and The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 20 : Ten days away..Should I be looking forward?

Friday, July 30, 2010

Slacking class today..So yeah nothing much to post about.. How about thinking how far I am away from what I wished for? Oh yay ! ~Stuff ordered from ~Asos is here.. Collecting it later on from nub Clem's house

~~One and only B1~~   Not talking about it..Not possible anymore.
~~Memorable Day Of Bananas~~   Achieved Its a Nice one too :)
~~Being Loved By Someone I Loved~~ Not talking about it..Not possible anymore.
8 August 2010   Return of Bananas though I not sure about other part of it..
A Nice Silver Watch   Not sure what kind i like and it seem expensive ):
Slim down Doubt possible I am lazy :/
Calamari Can get it anytime just that feeling are different already when eating it.
Contact Lenses / Specs   Cant decide wad to get.
iPhone 4 Getting in 2 weeks time.. i3plus plan ending on 15th August
Credit Card Getting in 1 week.. Signed Citibank Clear Card
New Hairstyle   Semi gotten it.. Left the growing of side hair n rebonding of tail..Feel like dyeing it again >.<
More clothes   Semi gotten it.. Clothes ordered from asos arriving tomorrow
Improvement in Artworks Don't know what this for..Maybe to impress people instead of interest already If only I would constantly attend school
~~Bag~~ Gotten one but feel like getting another
Belt Long wanted this but cant seem to find a decent one ):
Redesigned room Might take awhile..Needa find time to go out look for a new study table / Repaint room / Psycho dad to get me an air-conditioner / 32 Inch Tv

Blogged @ 12:47 AM
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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 19 : Lost interest in every single thing that i do

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Dont feel like talking much today.. Just feeling freaking sian of everything.. Play Sian.. Sleep Sian.. Go School Sian.. Walkwalk at town area sian.. Doing nothing sian,, aiya fuck it la zz :/ End of post .. Dont ask me why.. I can only reply you.. I serious don't freaking know..I wish i know but i don't ..

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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 17 : I am confuse of what I really wants...

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Skipped class once again and school called.. argh boring class especially today 9am to 8pm think of it aso bored already so end up never go at all . :/ Just gotten haircut today...its like every single month thinking of difference kind of hairstyle i wanna get so end up like i keep long here n there but end up cut in den next month become i wan that again >.< argh wadeva...i need more shoppings ..I wanna change.. change everything.. change clothes .. change hair .. change myself.. change everything till im not like myself anymoree..

Just a random add-on song.
Cherish This Love - A1

Sorry for making you cry
For turning away as you walk on by
Baby, I need to be strong
And I need to move on with my life
You know it's not that I don't care
So don't make me feel bad, it's not fair
Baby, you know all the reasons
I made my decisions in life
Now a girl's gotta do, what a girl's gotta do
And a boy has to become a man
And I'm sorry for saying but it's love that I need
And the love I just can't get from you
It's funny how things turn around
One day I am lost then I'm found
It happened so fast, I knew it would last
From the first time I first looked in your eyes
Although it's so soon, this I know
I'll never be on my own
Dreams turn to tears, she buries my fears
And I will cherish this love ever more
You know it's not easy to do
Turning my back on me and you
Baby I need someone there
Who will love me and care for my life
Smiles they turned into tears
And all of my dreams they all disappeared
Baby this cannot be right
So, I'll turn down the light on our love
Now a boy's gotta do, what a boy's gotta do
And a girl has to do what she can
And I'm sorry for saying but it's love that I need
And the love I just can't get from you
It's funny how things turn around
One day I am lost then I'm found
It happened so fast, I knew it would last
From the first time I first looked in your eyes
Although it's so soon this I know
I'll never be on my own
Dreams turn to tears, she buries my fears
And I will cherish this love ever more
And everything that could gone wrong
Has gone wrong at some time
Now I can see the light, it was love at first sight
And I'm not gonna let this girl go
It's funny how things turn around
One day I am lost then I'm found
It happened so fast, I knew it would last
From the first time I first looked in your eyes
Although it's so soon this I know
I'll never be on my own
Dreams turn to tears, she buries my fears
And I will cherish this love ever more
Yes, I will with you

No special meanings.. Just some random posting

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 16: A empty mind with countless words

Monday, July 26, 2010

IM SO FREAKING UNLUCKY TODAY ! FOR THOSE WHO READ THIS DONT LAUGH THANKYOU VERI VERI BERI DE MUCHIE.. I KENA A GOD DAMN BIRD SHIT ON MY HEAD FOR GOODNESS SAKE...
Those who wan buy 4d n toto
3 7 8 13 31 26 <--- Toto
2607 <--- 4d

Screw it.. STOP LAUGHING !

This is bad, really bad..veri veri beri de bad..Something that was always around so naturally once before end up seem so difficult nowadays :/ Time changes things...Changes till where stuff seem so awkward that every single stuff can easily link back to previous topic ): ..

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 15 : A dream within a dream

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Went for Mystified's Guild's BBQ @ Jurong Point.. Fun..Get to know alot more people..Chitchat jokes fun and laughter..To some people they might think its lame to go this kind of stuff but well.. to me i seem it to be quite fun i supposedly.. Heck.. have fun can already but....

A dream within a dream..Means you dream once again inside your own dream which make times look like flying.
1 Min Of Reality = 1 Day of Your 1st Dream
1 Min of Your 1st Dream = 1 Day of Your 2nd Dream
1 Min of Reality = 60 Day of Your 2nd Dream
To me it just passed like 1 min ago in reality..Every Single Thing/Happenings and Memorable moments just passed within a min.. A very precious minute that tastes all kind of feelings within a human..

I am worried about your current mood.

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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 14 : I miss my bananas )*:

Saturday, July 24, 2010

A few items selected from www.asos.com

Assignment only done 1/3 of the main drawings... Stupid einstein face so crap.. so many tones derh.. sarkk.. having bbq with Mystified people tomorrow.. might got pictures to upload too :)

Got booked on 13th August..Meeting god daughters Gorilla and Mehmeh Tan...

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 13 : A head full of uncertains and question marks

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Yay, 1 hour lesson today only.. In fact it was a 4-6pm lesson but teacher release us at 5pm so tada ! there goes the only hour..art material ish so Expensiveeee ahhh T.T a few layout pads n some pens can cost up to 50 sgd already wuwuwuuuu....

I am having a headache..Seem like i cant stop myself again to back to post all this once again but well..At least wont be feeling that emo-ish already though it just bothering me over and over again.. Even if i tried , its always in my mind.. Uncertainties that would like to be cleared.. Hopefully...It has been an hard time on you too i know , though I feeling nothing better but still...we have to face it...or maybe should put it as.. I wish i could clear my doubts one day...

Let the time flows like water , an answer to those uncertainties would sure be out when the flow of water hits a rock or something.

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 11 : Worse school day ever.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

For the first time i would attend an early class
For the first time i having such crazy lesson
For the first time i miss my home so much
For the first time i miss my laptop that badly
For the first time i would willing touch on assignments not last minute
For the very thousand time i would think and miss you damn badly
For the very thousand time i end up sleeping in class
For the very thousand time i would miss my bed
For the very thousand time i would have the mindset of skipping lessons again
For the very thousand time i would feel uncomfortable over something that i shouldn't be anymore.

End of the worse day of school week .. YAY ! gonna start doing bits of assignment even abit aso counts

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 10 : Last...

Monday, July 19, 2010

Everything shall left as memories..Most wonderful memories having for the past half a year...Going through all kinds of feelings...Whats not mine wont ever be mine.. All the best ..You both have my blessing...Leaving off as an extra one afterall :)

-Bananas forever-

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会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 9 : Last post for the mean time.. Temporary shall stop blogging for a short period of time

Saturday, July 17, 2010

召喚獸 - 陳乃榮

Translation available for someone..

你流淚流了好久 You cried for a long time

白晝哭成黑夜 Day turned into night

失去能量的你 The you without energy

還是那麼甜美 Is still so sweet

為我照亮這世界 Shine upon my world

我就算沒資格愛誰 Even if I have no right to love anyone

還是無法退卻 I still couldn't back away

溫柔的雙眼 The gentle eyes

沉默守護一切 Silently protect all

一顆心為你純粹 A heart that is pure for you

我願做你的召喚獸 I'm willing to be your summoned beast

陪你闖危險的宇宙 Accompany you through the dangerous universe

期待你有一天 Hoping one day

回頭看看我 You will look at me

當你真的躲不過誘惑 If you really can escape from temptation

我安然地放手 I will let go

再回到角落狩獵 and go back hunting in the corner

你我永遠的以後 of our forever after

我願做你的召喚獸 I'm willing to be your summoned beast

一生配合你的要求 Satisfy your every request

不能夠忍受你 Can't stand you

可能失去我 Possibly losing me

當你疲倦墜落的時候 When you tired and crashed

能抓住我的手 You can grab hold my hand

哪怕是只有一秒的夢 Even if it's only a second of dream

也值得追求 It's worth the persuit

我就算沒資格愛誰 Even if I have no right to love anyone

還是無法退卻 I still couldn't back away

溫柔的雙眼 The gentle eyes

沉默守護一切 Silently protect all

一顆心為你純粹 A heart that is pure for you

我願做你的召喚獸 I'm willing to be your summoned beast

陪你闖危險的宇宙 Accompany you through the dangerous universe

期待你有一天 Hoping one day

回頭看看我 You will look at me

當你真的躲不過誘惑 If you really can escape from temptation

我安然地放手 I will let go

再回到角落狩獵 and go back hunting in the corner

你我永遠的以後 of our forever after

朋友說我會後悔 Friends say I'll regret

一輩子孤單徘徊 I will be lonely

沒有人應該永遠 Nobody should always

付出的多一些 Give so much

不願想這種畫面 Don't want to paint the picture

你慌亂獨自的飛 You frenziedly fly alone

千個流星把你包圍 Surrounded by thousands of meteor

我心疼 I love you too much

我願做你的召喚獸 I'm willing to be your summoned beast

當做我秘密的相守 Pretend it's my secret protection

不害怕有一天 Don't be afraid of one day

你要放開我 You want to let go of me

當你越飛越高的時候 As you fly higher and higher

我終究會看透 I will eventually realize

求救是命運最美的錯 Help is life's most beautiful mistake

在召喚著我 It's summoning me

你召喚著我 You are summoning me

情願獻上我的自由 I'm willing to present you with my freedom

淚了 - 曾沛慈

天快亮了 Sun is about to be up

能不能別離開呢 Can you not leave?

沉默像首悲傷的歌 Silence is like a sad song

捂上視線卻模糊了 The covered vision is blurred

你要走了 You are leaving

也帶走所有快樂 Taking away all the happiness too

甜蜜的片段散落了 The sweet memories fall apart

疲倦了心冷了我哭了 Tired, disheartened, I cried

那流星閃過 When the meteor flashed pass

我們許下一個願望 We made a wish

要在一起絕不分離 To be together, never to separate

你怎麼放棄了 How come you gave up?

星空在閃爍 Stars are glistening

像你的眼淚 Like your tears

悄悄劃過 Silently go across

當你放開了手 When you let go

離開的時候 And left

有沒有一點捨不得我 Have you hesitated about leaving me?

淚光在閃爍 Tears are glistening

而我的眼淚忍住 And I try to hold it off

不敢墜落 Not dare to let it drop

我還留在黑暗中守候 I’m still waiting in the darkness

你卻已經遠遠離開我 But you have already left me

離開我了 You have left me

夢醒了還剩什麼 When I wake up from the dream, what is left?

我要的幸福消失了 The happiness I want disappeared

你的心曾經屬於我的 Your heart had once belonged to me

那流星閃過 When the meteor flashed pass

我們許下一個願望 We made a wish

要在一起絕不分離 To be together, never to separate

你怎麼放棄了 How come you gave up?

星空在閃爍 Stars are glistening

像你的眼淚 Like your tears

悄悄劃過 Silently go across

當你放開了手 When you let go

離開的時候 And left

有沒有一點捨不得我 Have you hesitated about leaving me?

淚光在閃爍 Tears are glistening

而我的眼淚忍住 And I try to hold it off

不敢墜落 Not dare to let it drop

我還留在黑暗中守候 I’m still waiting in the darkness

你卻已經遠遠離開我 But you have already left me

有過的快樂 All the happiness we had

我都記得 I still remember

回憶還旋轉著 Memories are still swirling

愛怎麼停了 Why has love stopped

我們都累了 We are both tired

星空在閃爍 Stars are glistening

像你的眼淚 Like your tears

悄悄劃過 Silently go across

當你放開了手 When you let go

離開的時候 And left

有沒有一點捨不得我 Have you hesitated about leaving me?

淚光在閃爍 Tears are glistening

而我的眼淚忍住 And I try to hold it off

不敢墜落 Not dare to let it drop

我還留在黑暗中守候 I’m still waiting in the darkness

你卻已經遠遠離開我 But you have already left me

Just 2 songs .. Nothing special.. Going out for movie later on.. Not feeling any bettter now

Blogged @ 10:52 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Earlied post of Day 8 : being loved feel better then loving someone.Though it would be the best if turn out to be being loved by someone you loved

Friday, July 16, 2010

Tension arose.Everything inside seem to disappear or went into stealth leaving a chunk of disturbance. For a split second suddenly feel that things doesn't seem so simple, Forgo discomfort,chase and fight for own happiness seem to be theoretically correct but problem lies on whether being able treating something which is always there not there a not. Road seem both long and short. Long in term of boredom daily without you and short when it seem that time starts flying when getting more anxious of fears of what gonna happen in the very end. Beginning of a brand new story or having part of life melts and start to drip off.

Boredom is driving me crazy to start thinking again though knowing that it wont make any changes from thinking..Gonna face it in the very end..Whether is good or its bad..filled with happiness or sorrows...Staying or leaving...all lies within a single line holding hands side by side.. I want to go outtttttttttttttt.. someone drag me out please :/ I am freaking hungry zzz..

Winds are strong. Strong enough to blow you away from me but i would always stretch out my hand waiting for you to grab it and pull u back anytime :)

-End of post. Feeling much better after spamming them out - I am alright..

3 week 2 days more.. Gonna stay strong till the very end

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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 7 : 会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない ...A wish that would never known to be granted a not.. Awaits upon a shooting star

Prickles of feeling down the neck. Endless pain there would be. Turning of head just like going to hell. Helplessly staring at you. Hoping of something could be done to make one feel better but nothing available. Chasing off to rest as soon as possible. Though missing the time of random-ness but healthcae are more important..Words can be expressed during other times..Get lost with the stupid pain via a peaceful nap, wake up and enjoy celebration instead of troubling pains..Takecareee :'( Worried ..

You are never be walking alone. If there is a number 1 of anything there will always be a number 2 behind supporting..Stood still at the very beginning point staring at the opposite direction..Hoping to see you once again returning after a huge turn around the Earth. Held up the hand at any point of time, waiting for another hand to grab it and walk up the staircase of heaven and earth. Bananas are loved. ♥

Blogged @ 12:42 AM
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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 6 : Commitment > harsh moments..Let go of discomfort..Treating it as not there..Do what you wadeva you best with..

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Talks and thoughts. Discomfort still flows in the breathing air though still far from limitations. Pains are there at moments will eventually run down the river. How big can an Earth be? No matter how big round it turns, it will still be back to you if its someone you been clicked with in the future times.Whats is the pain when not being certain about being able to get a not or when losing it comparing to much worst case around when not known of (know one already for me)? When expectation is high, the moment of falling will end up having no idea of feeling piss or sad. Maybe should just enjoy the process of it instead cause it might be something that never repeats again once decision is made despite greediness. Its something which can only happen once.The harder to achieve the more cherish will be put into it. I will last.....

Nom nom nom.. Dinner @ new store call bbq chicken at Kovan.

Blogged @ 1:52 AM
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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 5 's Early post : A mind full of bananas.. :3

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Loneliness without 2nd half of the broken heart

Back from school after waking up freaking early at 8am..Boring orientation where i dont even get to know who is my classmate =.= mostly is briefing all the way instead..shall not metion much on this... oh well wadeva.. now im home here to rest ...

Not by a time my mind wont have image of you poping out ended up leaving a msg of random-ness..whether its at home or in school ( Ehhhh.Not saying that i bored den miss you ah ! i miss you all the time ok ! )..Its less den a week yet though still able to see you at nights but still...missing the days we are out , on phone , laugh , special cries ( w*w*w*** ) .. or even random talks.. last but not least.. your complains ! >.< happy times that wished to last forever :3 ...feeeling really empty suddenly without all those around me..Though its tiring but looking forward to it every single day.. which is when my happy stars flash in my flash though its not a actual one but still its enough to half fill an empty heart

for myself references : If you think you'll lose, you've lost. For out of the world we find , Success begins with a person's will.It's all in the state of mind..
-Never say give up till the very end-

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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 4 : Headache..Moody people are the hardest to understand cause you hardly understand what they needs .. so are for themselves.

Resting abit for now.. Returning to school later on..Awakening up at 2 respective timing for 2 different purposes. One for the Heart one Another for Needs. For someone loved and for something that been promised to accomplish. Negative signs doesn't always leads to negative ending.Time changes everything and the day is still far..Never give up till the very end..Thinking wont change results though minds always think about it.It only make someone tiring at both mind and heart of just doing some random calculations..Realize what you want and what you need..and that will be a ending point of confusion and starting point of a brand new storyline..Believe in myself and believe in you..I miss you..

30-(43x0.2)-1.5=19.5

Ratio: 7:12 .

-Remaining in the house or moving out for someone else to take over depends on fate and destiny. A mountain cant have two tigers-

Blogged @ 1:22 AM
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-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Best song that fits into my current feelings.. Day 3 now

Monday, July 12, 2010

As stubborn as usual, not heeding advice but preferred to go along with own decision and feelings that always lead to self destruction. But who cares? Feel right den just do it..Slowly building back confidence no matter how bad the situation it maybe..in the end no matter what the result will be back to square one despite how many time it hurts..only for a single reason : I love you..

Best song to represent my feelings right now : Sakura Rock
I want to see you , I miss you, we're apart   Missing you every single moment even if u are overseas
That day will never come again                    Maybe, Maybe not..

My life-sided self, I'll wave to u in the          There's always a distance between us.
distance,raise your hand
Put your hands up.Yeah.Oh.

The season comes when you can smell
something faint in the air
Now I'm reliving that time when my heart was full               Full of life when feel loved once before
of life
I fell in love for the first time, everything was                       Moments are the best at the point of time
shining back,then
Even if its only for a short time, we made our                      Even if its barely a few months
mark together

Beneath the blooming cherry blossom trees                        Singapore no cherry blossom
The spring breeze blows and I can't hear your
voice
I prayed you weren't saying goodbye                                 I hope so..

I want to see you, I miss you, we're apart                          No doubt, that's always come across my mind
That day's smiles flutter to the ground
You promised it would last forever but you're not               No promises made though since stuff are uncertain
here anymore
If my wish comes true then cherry blossoms will                 Singapore will snow instead sound more realistic
fall again next year
I want to take a photo side by side, that day will                 Maybe the only one left for memories was from
never come again                                                               flyers

I want to see you, I can't see whats in my palm                  Cant predict was gonna happen the next moment
See? A petal , the stars that shine in the sky
Just poke at my wounds                                                    How much it hurts doesn't matter anymore
What I wanted to tell you the most
Was that i'd never fall in love again                                    Most likely cause I'm getting tired of it

That station where we'd meet                                            Kovan station? The place you got lost but
and hide under an umbrella in the rain                                no umbrella there though.Only shelter plus no rain
Is a place I can't go by myself anymore                             on that day.

"I loved you," I dont need a letter with that past                 A letter that i don't wish to exist, i would tore it up
tense phrase
If you're kind when we break up, I'll want you to               Never started in the very beginning
stay with me
I'll be all alone in a place where you'll never                      If that day of decision came, and outcome would
return                                                                              be different..
Waiting for that day
And sing that nostalgic song in a quiet voice                      And this would be the song that represent it.

Saying that I'd never fall in love again was a lie                   Cant comment on this now..Cos i cant forget nor
And i was joking when I said i couldn't forget you              fell in love for anyone else again for now.
In the end, I don't want to forget you, I want to                  Cos you are already part of my life
love you

I want to see you, I miss you, we are apart                        I always wanted to see you cos u are my happy
That day's smile flutter to the ground                                  Pill
You promised it would last forever but you're not             When the time i am the one chosen to leave..
here anymore

I'm in our room as the radio plays the song
And the tears begin to pour on their own
The smile on your face is left is what i miss
the most

Let's make the cherry blossoms bloom and fall                      A weak self of me always stick to me.A
I can escape my weak self                                                    feeling that i wont be heck care of.
I'll sing a melody with the sound of tears                                Listening but not singing.Scare window break
A spring song plays on the radio, it's that time of                    I dont listen radio, I listen on laptop
the year again
I've accepted your goodbye                                                  Doubt i will accept it.I'm stubborn
A page in my memories will always be coloured                    Its a ring instead of a page
bright

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/19646/cherryblossom/sakura-rock.html

Blogged @ 3:17 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Day 2 Passed.. 28days more to go..

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Though its just a small stuff of being the first.Its still appreciated and loved :) I am happy about it..Trying to control and not complaining much about it.Occupied myself while thinking of you most of the time.. Steamboat @ Amk for dinner with Clem Gw Black n Yuentuck..Cheap and filling though didnt manage to eat as much as what i use to last time..Kabooom~ exploded..Needa wake up early later on.. Im off to sleep nights people..Waking up at 5am later on.. anything leave me a msg on msn...To wake me up.. Nudge me.

-Looking through the ring upon my eyes, which shows past happy memories-

Blogged @ 1:29 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Beginning of the toughest month ...

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Walking off with hard feeling within the heart, cover the true face under a mask of nothing happens. In fact its wet just right below it. It wont drop out till the very last day.Apologize wont make any changes but in fact knowing what you actually wants for in the end is already the best apologies to make me feel that whatever I have done till today its worth it. Good or bad Still gonna face it. Its my life.The day knowing the fact of someone leaving which drops of sadness or finally made it with tears of joy.. Its just like knowing the fact of someone naturally wants it but end up like still uncertain about it.Though its unofficial or what yet, last hopes can only be placed on the line of the month. Feelings of split into two. Someone has to leave after all . There` is no way that two person can be pleased at the same time.. It just happen to be a suffering month. Cant manage to sleep w.o the usual stuffs. It just feeling weird. Staring the ceiling, looking at the ring of memories, thinking of you....nothing is call not worth it as long as its working for someone you loved..Even if having to give up every single thing..Fight for it, Win it , Have it honorably..A few hours just passed i cant seem to fell asleep..

-I miss you B1-

Blogged @ 4:22 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Happy past times filled up my mind.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Minor arguements tensed up the chat due to my over sensitivity and there im here to apologize once again.But lady luck is on my side. Problems are solve and thoughts are cleared. Maybe is cause the day is tomorrow. Past experience of our random chats and stupidity stuff that we did filled my head. Random stuff that was said to each other, some are weird if see it from other point of view , some are sick till doesnt seem like what normal friends would say , some are kawaii till we can even laugh at it no matter how many times we repeated it. Time seem short and flying damn fast. Half a year has past since knowing each other. Tons of jokes and laughter , tears and sorrows , randomness and stupidity created during this period of time. Suddenly feel that stuff will feel very different in someway but i still wont know. Six sense of guys i supposed..

Blogged @ 11:12 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Engraved in memories.. 7th July : Strawberry day ! Done my best , Tried whatever i could . No regrets

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Pictures speaks more den what words could show.

Apple juice while slices of apple being poked

Process of poking apples in Marche @ 313 Somerset

Movie : Twilight Eclipse

Sorry i dono how to change the view of the picture
On computer it shows the correct direction.
Anyways its a foto from singapore flyer..Both 1st time went there :X

Drink me please? Its a banana Shake

Banana Split waffles ! With Strawberries..

Cheese Cake with Strawberries and Caramel Paste

Ending off with an nice set of rings though it meant to be different stuff

Special Chocolate Cafe @ Esplande

The sky is clear and dark giving a feeling of calmness. Walking up a route towards scenaries of beauty. Stopped down to look at water fountains. Eyes are being told to close. Something go around the neck. Nothing else but something specially made. Comfortable lean forwards looking out at the sea and night scenary. Took it out to try the size. Entangled like how my thoughts goes.Complicated and stuff. Staring at the seat lights figuring a way out to solve it. Finally took out the chain. Fear of size doesnt suit but luckily it does. Chating over a peaceful and romantic environment. Having a calm and peaceful mind. Saying about thoughts and feel. Sat for awhile before going back.

Few people i still gonna thanks. And Credits them
Nub Gw : Helping abit out with the plannings
Nub Clem : Accompany go collect the special stuff.
Nub Black : Introducting food from chocolate cafe
Nub Milk : Marina Barrage.
Shagua ling / Nub fei de / Angus : Chatting with me when i down , enlighten me :X

Blogged @ 10:33 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

How much you think wont make any changes, so still think for what? Continue work for it la.. duh ! Want think wait till end of everything then slowly think all you want also not too late..

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Moutains are tall.Road are tough,Slopes are steep.Takes everything to reach the peak.Time,Motivation,Effort,Hard work,Determination. Destination still faraway.A place where you could never see the finishing board.Draining off energy bits by bits for each steps you take.Reaching a not still unknown.But at least I never give up trying.Even if collapse also fell with no regrets though the result might got chance not be what being wished for.

当结果还未知前，不要轻易放弃否则对不起自己。知道自己尽全力就足够了，至少不会后悔，只能怪自己无能。

Blogged @ 3:13 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Worried

Sunday, July 4, 2010

I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
I am okay, I am okay , I am okay it will be fine. Everything will be alright after a nap. I got a lot self confidence of handling it
* self hypnotizing *

Worries feel my mind. Cold feeling suddenly arose. Feel very down now. Apologize for irritate of repeating again and again but the worries just cant get off my mind..whole body not moving on my bed cant getting to fell asleep..Hoping for someone to talk to . Release the tension and pain inside . Hurting is one thing while leaving is another. A feeling of 10000x worse to feel hurt den feel that gonna lose something

Blogged @ 10:15 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Words of heart, Love is ruthless. No such thing as none is hurt

Cant be bothered about other people's problem when one cant even solve their own.Prickles me each time it was mentioned. A cup filled of jealousy is enough , water of words added into the cup which makes it overflows. Just like the flow of tears from one's eyes. Each and every single moment of dramatic changes, highest and lowest point of a person's mind. Calculation of percentage changes from time to time. Just like im draining out while others is taking in. A bless of feeling that never been felt before which feel like you are in heaven but you still alive.A memories that keep in the heart of an ant's home. A unknown deadly knife which meant for concern in fact pierce through happy bubbles and split into needle prickles. Accompanied by the side walking down the stairs, after the stairs leads two ways. Whether will be on same route or different one is just a blink of eyes. Nothing will be change if sitting down on the staircase blocking the way. Sitting by your side and know your way.Wont be regret when the direction change.

Time are short and one starts to panic. Thinking of how life gonna be when part of it are gone for a period of time. Thinking of before and after. Thinking of what else could be done. Thinking of how pathetic it is. Thinking of every single thing that regard you. When too much thoughts are messed together, it turn out to be an *I don't know* in fact its a self deceiving *I don't want to know cause its hurting*. Insomniac of nights and Restless-ness of times. Closing of eyes on an drenched pillow getting to bed.

Blogged @ 3:55 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Tried to my very best..Rest is depend on you. Dont know what to say already except i love you.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Shall update this earlier today.. omg cant believe it right? i am blogging in the afternoon !! miracle hahahah...hmm lets seee...Woked up quite early and didnt have much sleep ystd.. Met :) after her violin lesson which changed to today and Nub Gw for lunch @ pizza hut when nub teo n qin came..Totally lost when they talk about soccer bets..Mission 1 completed after lunch ! Cleared round 1: Shampoo and conditioner.. followed by round 2: Atm card replacement..mwahaha...

Rise with an heavy head after a night of sorrows and fear ,Filling with bothers.Went out with an empty stomach meeting a happy star. Tasty Cheesy meatballs and Thin crust filled it up coated with an cheerful pill aura from aside..Cleared the worries during an heavy rains. Cold wind blowing towards the body , travelling in an calm n shivering afternoon..Leaning against a stressful head while Words of hearts are spoken and feelings are shown..Thoughtss of the future filled my mind..Settling off with an Loving farewell which time stopped for that few seconds of happiness..Though it doesnt meant to be that way i would wanna it to be..Time shall run and feeling shall reveal..Hopefully the day it show was from no anyone but herself..Needles prickles feeling each and every single time of being asked ..Looking into the sky at the happy star in the sky while the clock running so fast and it seem like a thousand years when i bend dwn to look at the ground..Stretching out both hands toward it however it seem so near but yet its so far away :*(

Looking forward for wed but not friday ~.~

Blogged @ 9:33 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Though its not what i really seeking for,but gained partially of it should be satified already..It is worth it no matter how much it takes...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Went out to settle some stuff at AMK hub and had lunch @ subway..Cabbed home after buying some stuff since it was raining dont wan it to get wet too..Had a funny conversation in the afternoon with :) LOL.. talking about some dam random stuffs...Back home dragonica-ing..Grats xYoghurtss reaching 47 :P New pyjamas available hahah..Should be quite busy the next few day preparing some stuff and having pre-planed activities already...

I dont wish to be reminded again.. It hurts everytime when people start asking me that :/

Two meteors formed as one.Flying across the sky as shooting star during a half moon night..Separated into two by one single cut....Break through it and it will began.. Miracle shall happen when the moon turn full.. Using my bare hand to tear the sky..A day a week a month or a year.. Ζυγός and Τοξότης will meet someday when the line of their path cross apart..One holds Desire another holds Indecisive..Each went separated ways from the very start..Combined together bring a brand new stuff which means a ray of sunshine can be seen from the tear of the sky...

Blogged @ 11:52 PM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥

Seem so simple for those around me but yet its so hard for me :/ Whyyyy...meant to be this way i suppose just for me to seek something i really wants

Sometimes i really don't understand myself.. Its just like being confuse of myself what i really want to make myself feel better at times..Knowing or not knowing...Knowing in a sense tat know already still feel sad but not knowing when end up knowing also feel almost the same way...Like i wish i would wanna know but also feel sian when knowing..but also like i tried to pretend see nothing or whatever but still feel the same way lying to myself even though knowing the fact is still there...arghhh >.< ...

-Looking into the mirror at myself yet still cant figure out-

Strains flow down from my shoulder..Holding a sleepy and tiring head... Tapping on soft n silky hair.. Having a short and peaceful rest with an empty stomach..The time would stop running awhile the vehicle run endlessly.Moments there wanted to be there as always..

Blogged @ 1:51 AM
会いたくて　恋しくて　離れてあの日はもうこない
-Sakura Rock- Song of Memories between us ♥