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Very Last Post : Digging into the deepest part of a heart , having no choice but to say farewell...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Thinking through every single thing that happens during the past few months and I questioned myself.

Was it what I really wanted ever since it begins all the way till now? My answer is No.

What do I really wanted myself? My answer is to able to have someone that I loved that was always by my side showing love and support.

Is what I doing now everyday leading to what I wanted? No, it doesn't. It only tiring me out. Making me feel miserable.

Why am I having insomniac every single night thinking about all these stuff? I don't know either.

Saying it after questioning myself is simple. But doing it out wasn't as easy as you think. What would finally be mine would end up come back instead.

I guess no more discussion or arguments are needed anymore. You no longer have to think about those stuff and worry about. I will *try* to be alright. Kinda saddening to see this happening every single day between us.My answers are absolute. He's around I wont be there. I dislike shared memories with other people , so yeah be it. So its better not to ask those questions if you would have already know the answer itself.

Times has changed. There wont be a topic anymore if I never bother to start one.

Hopefully after all these are over , if feelings are still there. It would be nice though like what you said we shall see how by then. I don't feel like being treated as a substitute anymore. Talk about it when you feel that its the time to slot thing out if you feel that you would already have an answer.

There will be only a place I would update if I updating. You know where would there be (:

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Undescribable Tired..

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Maybe it shouldn't exist in the very first place...

I feel like disappearing into thin air.. or a place that nobody knows me..nobody would notice me..thats how the feeling of being insignificant feels like..

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The one where I gotten really drunk...

Drink !
Drank !
Drunk !
Flunk !

Its cold on the surface , covering with towels and pillows
Its hot at the same time throughout the whole face..
Its dizzy and heavy.. inside the mind...
Sitting below my shower , letting the water run.. puking over and over..
Its fun.....

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Hatred over weekends...

Friday, August 20, 2010

Weekend. What is weekend? Do anyone have an answer to it? Yes I do. Partially of it though. Its for working adult to take a break from workloads , schooling students to enjoy themselves instead of studying everyday. It sound free and relaxing isn't it?

But I would like to say I hate weekends..Hate it badly...Some stuff are just totally different during weekday and weekends.It just start of the 1st day yet it already gotten so bad? Yes I dislike certain stuff.. So? Does it matter? No, it doesn't from my current point of view..

If this continues I won't wanna say anymore stuff already. Its sickening and tiring to see this happening every single week. No matter how much I concern about it , it just goes the dumb way or whatever way you all like to label it as.. It just something never ending..

Listen what you like , Ignore what you wanna run.. Its just the fact..The difference between weekday and weekend .Its big enough till its out of imagination.. I hate arguing over similar problem over and over again..So would it be the best for you IF we gonna stop arguing over it? nobody gonna mention about it? nor it even existed?

Yes , I am greedy..Greedy till I dislike every single thing. If you are satisfy with whats on going now then let it be. I would say I am not satisfied. I am unhappy about it. Yes, there is nothing you can do about it. I know. Thats what you would always say.

When saw you mentioning it in the way, it make me feel a totally like a dumb substitute. If wanna know what is it..Ask me yourself for those who interested , But I would say whether i wanna say it depend on myself..Like it or not..Its your own problem..

Yes, I am sarcastic , but I don't care.. It's me..

Waiting for reply to go out now..Drinking anyone?

Mood: Restless.

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Backstreet Boys » How Did I Fall In Love With You Lyrics

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Remember when, whenever we needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understand we'd never be alone
Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Who will want say this life
That it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this life
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna stay the rest of my life

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, remember you
How did I fall in love with you?

I wanna sleep..I am tired.. A long long sleep..

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Pizza hugs..

See how stuff goes...
Hope for a better change...
If not most probably...
It would be the time...
To....

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The day where I finally go to school for an hour..

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Why would I be feeling disappointments when I dont even wanna look forward to anything?
Tired and restless..Both physically and mentally..
Nothing just get into my head so matter how much other people say..

More pictures are uploaded on facebook..Do visit if interested..

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Just an weekday substitute.

Monday, August 16, 2010

From left : Rong , ML , Me
Credits : Pig Donna

Picture from yesterday outing with mystified friends at some steamboat @ bugis.. More pictures coming up for today's picnic and stuff.. Making a album for outings and stuff... Stay tune...

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没有期望就不会有失望.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Out.

Insignificant anymore.

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Never ever put your whole heart into something or it gonna be breatheless

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Some pictures from yesterday as promised

Just reached home after a so-called Japanese Mahjong at clem's house
Finding a book : Guide to flirting for dummies

You should know where to find the world of ours..

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Being stupid..the most stupid human in the world.. but i just doesnt seem to concern about it of finding it stupid of stuff i do..for one single reason...

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The one where i gotten myself confused..

flesym ot epoh nwo gnivig..rehtruf em truh annaw tnod uoy dna gnivieced fles eno ylno eht ma i ro gninruter fo aera yllaer era ereht rednow yllaer i semitemos

Tmr den upload a few outing pic when i got it. :/

yes. it gonna rain.

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Being the Stupidest Human on the planet.. But thats how i put feelings into it...

Friday, August 13, 2010

1 word : Sian. Don't know what to say nor feel like saying anything..I am confuse and feeling damn bothered every single day..Every single second wondering what gonna happen next.

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Learning with insanity.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Tiring day after out for a day.. Liar game was a nice movie anyway...And im being an direction idoit for today.. Meeting god daughters tomorrow after a long time not seeing each others...okay thats shall be end of today post...good luck have fun...
If learning from insanity is the only way i could come back to realistic , i would wanna learn it that way

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Bear with it .. Just a little while moree...

Worse day ever...morning woke up on my way to school end up having an stomachache.. den i went to toilet...come out.. reach the station realise i left my art stuff in the toilet so i run back take.. den when i got back to the station i realise my ezlink card got problem.. so end up buying standard ticket.. from nt late for class become late.. wth.. den reach class.. den i realise got a homework tat need to be handed up today i totally forgotten about it .. carryin weightage of the overall score one.. dead :/
Hopefully i know what im doing and what you are doing..and the answer would be out soon if can >.<

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Where chat gone a better way..

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Tension seeing words being alot stronger when mentioning *it*
Seem to be alot better when speaking of *it* directly somehow..
Maybe it just cause of cant manage to be anger with another afterall.

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Pathetic GgFiCaTioN.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Staring into the phone day and night , waiting for a single reply .. Thinking of what you doing at this very moment .. Worrying about what could happen next . Yes i have fell into an bottomless pit . Waiting for someone else to pull me out of this.. Oxygen inside is getting low... When it drains out , it won't be there anymore.

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Driving me crazy.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Alcohols is your best buddy.It helps to clear those bothers in your heart. Spilling every single bothers out into the basins.End of Post.It just feel dam pathetic worrying every single night

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Day 30 : The day of returning

Every single process that we meant to overcome , we are growing every single time . What we would have to gone through , what we have overcome , what we have solved .. It all slowly leading us to find our way of light.. Knowing of what we wants , what we need. Slowly being more mature for some , take a longer for others.
Time Flies . Speaking of it might seem to be long but in fact its just a blink of eyes. Just seem like it was a second ago when everything started when seeing the finishing point at the end. This is call life.
why is it still so hurtful? why is it always make me feel damn sad? i wont wanna feel this way anymore please..it shouldn't be this way anymore..why is it tat even you told me earlier that u going meet them first end up i would feel so sad so bother? how much i wish i can know the answer between us..how much i wish i can know why u made tat decision..how much i wish for it..how much i wish i could let this feeling of us go butits leading me on and on..fall deeper and deeper..till a point of no return..stuff we does together is much more den what words could explain but why? why that would be your decision..i cant understand..its so hard to breathe..
I shall not fking eat mac spicy again ! for god damit make me run toilet for 12 times today .. #$^%$&%^!@$!$

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Day 29: Why?

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Why am i still so bothered by small little even though knowing that the facts is already there?

why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
It is just like self torturing , cant letting stuff goes , cant have the courage to face the fact , always thinking that there would be a change .. but still lose to a single word *fate*.Getting bothered by thousand of stuffs , lost motivation for thousand of stuff ..Worked for it , Tried for it , Drained by it .. I am really tired ): ..i hate feeling this way i wish i could put down those feelings but i cant..i dont wanna feel this way anymore..its tough..its making me hard to breathe :/ its like i don't wanna give up but at the same time i don't wanna feel this way anymore sigh >.<

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Where words are spread out

Friday, August 6, 2010

I ...

Here.
Mine.
You.
Comments.
Ours.

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Day 28 : Where words are spreaded out...

I ....

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Day 27 : Finally found the song i liked :D

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Iyaz – So Big Lyrics
Then theres a boy i.y.a.z...
Now I wanna do it up (So Big)
Party it up (So Big)
Spend it up (So Big)
So the whole world know my love for you (So Big)
My heart is (So Big)
My love is (So Big)
For you, for you

Now was a girl like u, nothing u cant do
But keep the whole world to a 24-7
When she looking so sweet that kind of body
You dont mind spending all of your time..time..time
And its not that you were asking me for nothing
I just wanna show you how deep my love is

I saw them girls before
I wasnt feeling so
Calm
Forget you girl
I^,m losing control.. yo!

Now I wanna do it up (So Big)
Party it up (So Big)
Spend it up (So Big)
So the whole world know my Love for you (So Big)
My heart is (So Big)
My love is (So Big)
For you,for you

Now was a girl like u, nothing u cant do
But keep the whole world to a 24-7
When she looking so sweet that kind of body
You dont mind spending all of your time..time..time
And its not that you^,re asking me for nothing
I just wanna show you how deep my love is

I saw them girls before
[ So Big lyrics from
http://www.musiclyricsnow.net/i/iyaz/so-big/ ]
I wasnt feel so calm
Forget you girl
I^,m losing control..yo!!

Now I wanna do it up (So Big)
Party it up (So Big)
Spend it up (So Big)
So the whole world know my love for you
My heart is (So Big)
My love is (So Big)
For you,for you

Now was a girl like u, nothing u cant do
But keep the whole world to a 24-7
When she looking so sweet that kind of body
You dont mid spending all of your time..time..time
And its not that you^,re asking me for nothing
I just wanna show you how deep my love is

I saw the girls before
I wasnt feel so calm
Forget you girl
I^,m losing control.. yo!!

Now I wanna do it up (So Big)
Party it up (So Big)
Spend it up (So Big)
So the whole world know my love for you (So Big)
My heart is (So Big)
My love is (So Big)
For you,for you

Now was a girl like you
I don^,t care who
Now i^,ve found my way
See now I^,ll be on you

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Day 26 : When the days are approaching...

Sigh.
Feelings just come naturally even its just from people who you wish to see first :/

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Day 25: Shopping day ,

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

noobbest black.. stop taking photos !

Skipped afternoon class to go shopping :X LOL
Went shopping with Nub black and Gw at Tampines...Not bad.. bought 3 shirt 1 pants 1 belt 1 watch..

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Day 24: My head hurts..

Skipped yesterday's class..Once again... I am afraid.. afraid of my attendance.. my tendency to skip class slowly begins..My laziness slowly arose..Just finish roughly doing of some assignments just for handing up..Gonna skip the SAS class from 6-8pm one later on too.. Its is freaking boring for good-ness sake..Had an arguement with dad in the afternoon which was quite bad..But well , i had to admit i hate schooling also....Feeling damn sick right now..Sneezing/Watery nose/Slight fever/Headache...Doesnt matter... I wanna stay awake.. stay awake for your return...even if its for a single while.. I would....Cause i believe seeing you would just becoming a medicine for myself (:

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Day 23 :Changing little by little

Monday, August 2, 2010

Lots of stuff i dislike about
Lots of stuff i jealous about
Lots of stuff i care about
Lots of stuff i mind about
Lots of stuff i think about
Lots of stuff i wondered about
Lots of stuff i wished about
Lots of stuff i looking forward about
Lots of stuff i dont wanna bother about
Lots of stuff i concern about
Lots of stuff i wanna make changes about
Lots of stuff i wanna go back to what it was before about

After all these lots of stuff conclusion still would derive at one single point *you*

Highlighted my hair red today...And rebonded the tails... Resting for abit now.. Having a minor fever of 37.9degree running...Shall not blog much about today.. Misses :)

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Day 22 : Consider me as dead

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Fuck my life, Fuck my mistakes , Fuck relationships , Fuck loves , Fuck feelings , Fuck tournament , Fuck dragonica ,Fuck power seekers ,Fuck whatever it is..Doesnt matter anymore..Don't comment anything or I fuck you..

Yes..I am vulgar..But do i care? no..I wan to smash my keyboard into my screen now..Yes I am violent..But do i care? no..

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